More on Meditation

ahoy,
so i am writing in response to an annonymous comment left about the previous post. first off i want to thank the sender who i presume will read this as well. i am very happy to recieve feedback, and as you all can see, now i have something new to wrtie about. as always, comments, emails, and such, are highly solicited. it seems as if everyday im more and more out there, so its nice to hear that im not completely alone. (and thank you to all the people who have responded and emailed previously, your comments were much appreciated) with that said, here is the comment (in red, with my commentary in black):

interstig that a young person would be seeking truth over fitting in; that tells a story. about your mind and the extra noise in your head that meditation reduces: do you think you have control over this process or that this incredible search for truth chooses you as a pawn to express itself through you so that other's may here it? like a leave falling in the wind its movement and rattling noidy movements make the play between wind and gravity visible for us appreciate.

as for seeking truth over fitting in, i would not be so presumptuous to say that i have banished the social and societal 'protocol' that i have been born into. but i do feel that everyday my concerns are more and more geared towards the betterment of myself as a human being. as i see it we are spiritual beings in a human existence (i read that somewhere), and often lost in it. anyone who knows me knows that i am perhaps the most blessed person on the planet (which can be both a gift and a curse) and i feel as though thus far i have not done justice to my good luck. so i find that what actually makes me happy and feels right, is doing what i can to be the best that i can. and while i will slip into lazyness and apathy as i always have, it seems that everyday im able to snap out of it quicker. so im trying to lead a 'good' virtuous life, which means that i really have to figure out what that is. so far i have found many things that it is not, which is quite a step in the right direction, and so i push foward. as to whether i know what im doing or whether it just comes to me, i actually must say that it sort of just comes to me. its sort of like i pick up a book, and it turns out the be the perfect book at the perfect time. or like i look around and omens are all over theplace, but i have just now started to look for them. so know when people ask me the why's of my life, i simple respond that i just do what im told, not quite sure whos talking, but i listen. and while i dont think im a prophet (in fact i feel guilty even saying it) or especially admirable, i do hope that people get somethng out of what i say (and i have faith that they do, especially the poeple close to me, and hopefully anyone who talks to me or reads this). i mean, i write this so that you read it, and in writing it i make it real for myself. this is the first time in my life taht i have taken the time to record my thoughts, so they dont slip back into the darkness the next morning. it like things that i have always felt, now i am able to act on because i have written it down. i guess the reality we live in only exists in language.

medition is like a ray of sunshine it either reaches you or is block by something. somehow do to the people around you you have been expose to the search for truth. most kids are block from that kind of exposure. either negative or positive experiences have brought you to this abbys between reality and what may seem real.

meditation is indeed a ray of sunshine, well said. and it seems like such a small one at times. i am quite new to this meditation buisness, and while im sure im nowhere near where i want to be, i have unwaivering faith that i am exactly on the right path (part of my luckiest man in the world thing). some days are much bettter tahn others, i feel like my mind really rests and grows, and for the rest of the day i feel like im a super hero or something. and other days, it seems my mind is so cloudy that i cant even think strait, much less not think. as for how i got here, i must concede all credit to the wonderful people in my life. from my mother who is the most intuitivly spiritual person i know, who taught me that you cant think truth, you can only feel it; to my father who so subtly and dilligently planted the seeds in me, from the forum to shambala training to his living example on how one should live. i must acknowledge my wonderful brothers and sisters (and i include my homeboys and girls in that category) who are all on the same path as me, making meaning in the inherently meaningless, and finding the ˜√®ø¥ in all of us that is the true us. while im sure taht somepeople might look at my life and say that i have had some negative things happen to me, i beg to differ. when i look at my life, i cant find any negative aspects. things are what they are, but suddenly here i am, at the other end of all those 'things' and im happy and content and on the right path. all i know is that im so grateful for being where i am right now, surrounded by love on all sides.

perception is the biggest asset for coping with the infinite and paradoxal nature of the universe. the universe is always sending you an array of messages. perception is your deciphering pad to translates the infinite into the finite. your ability to write is a gift. do not take that for granted. like a good athlete alot of it is intuitive. facing failure and defeat cannot be thought. kicking a ball properly is an illsuion. there is no such thing as practice. the time is now and rising to the occasion at each moment is an inherret gift we all posses you either acknowledge it or not.

now i must say that i am not quite sure what to say at the moment. im glad you appreciate my writing, and yes it is quite intuitive, perhaps a little to much at times, i should really at least read these thinngs before i post them. "the time is now and rising to the occasion at each moment is an inherret gift we all posses you either acknowledge it or not". now that is good stuff, and i must say that i was not aware of this, but now that i read it it is suddenly real. this is exactly what i want to do, rise to the occasion at each moment, its that simple, if we do it we're excellent, and any moment were not, than were cheating ourselves, and the rest of humanity. i guess you really have to 'be in the moment' to rise to the moment, which brings us back to meditation, the only way i see taht we can unlock the power of the present. our thinking mind is the only barrier between us and the eternal, so we must get our minds in check, there is no other way. i can only percieve what i can percieve at the moment, and everyday my perception is sharper and sharper i think (and i hope). i dont claim to know 'the truth' or the true nature of anything or just anything in general, but i know i dont know, and i think that is the biggest step you can take. first you are in the dark, then you find out your in a long tunnel, and now all i need is the light to lead the way, and i think that that light is meditation. blablabla

the noise is tremendous but is not going away and forever evaisive.

the noise is tremendous but is not going away and forever evasive.
i dont think i can say it better.

peace and love and keep those comments rolling
emiliUano